Road to self discovery

Bushra Javed
3 min readJun 11, 2021

The expressions of kitten when it looked at an unknown creature (me) truly defines my terrified self when I looked at zoom class of almost 50 strangers all at once. I was surely dead scared and wanted to hide like the other kitten trying to hide. Hiding was my comfort zone and I openly challenged myself by joining Amal Academy (you can’t turn off your camera so hiding was out of option)

Looking from afar, whether it’s a safe place to step in. I saw 2 kittens at the back of my house and couldn’t help but relate myself to them. Kittens were so scared and were not letting me come closer. I wanted to help but kittens were assuming danger, so did I at the start of fellowship among the strangers forcing myself be there and interact.
During the first week of Amal fellowship, I was scared to open up, to share my story, I was having difficulty in posting my videos. I wasn’t talking much. I was only thinking about negative things that could happen if I start to interact.

But just like with my continuous effort, I build a trust relationship with kittens by filling their milk pot and patting them and making them realize I mean no harm but I am here to help.
This happened in second week of Amal fellowship ice breaking activity and everyone in my breakout room showed vulnerability and things they are struggling. It helped me to know that I am not alone and most of our problems are same. We are here to help each other. Let’s create a safe place for everyone. We all are here to bloom and grow like the flowers together in a same environment but in different pots. But we all need sunshine, water and space

In our fellowship, we became friends from strangers. I truly understand the meaning of:
A stranger is just a friend you haven’t met yet.

We started to reach out and help each other. I felt great under the burden of PWs. Because I know I was growing and learning and after that its time for spring. It’s fascinating to witness the act of blooming, whether it’s you or the flower.

Before this fellowship, I didn’t know what I will do in my future. There was uncertainty, confusion and mainly lack of self confidence.

Now, in this last week I feel empowered and I find out I am talented. I figure out many ways which I can choose. There is less uncertainty as there was before. I know I can achieve anything I set my mind on.

Now, I feel like I am a bird ready to take a flight in a right direction with a clear mind and a courage to fight with strong winds which are against me. Now I know what I have to do when it rains, there is always an opportunity. You can fly as high as you believe you can.

Sky is the limit.



Bushra Javed

I observe all the time and sometime likes to capture the beauty around me and when I can't capture it I write about it